* disclaimer: I fell asleep without hitting publish last night. Sorry!
Strength. This is what is inside all of us. I don’t care if you are a man, a woman, you don’t conform to gender, you’re young, you’re old, you feel like you are a massive failure… I don’t care… You have strength.
I used the picture of Wonder Woman both because of the theme of strength and because it is Free Comic Books Day.
Strength is so important. You have it and you don’t even realize it is there. No, I don’t mean how much you can lift physically. It’s about how much you can lift mentally — how much you put on your shoulders and hold on to.
My strength is learning to let go. Letting go of the lies I told myself. Letting go of people who are no good for me. Letting go of the past that I thought was looming overhead.
We have to let go if we are to ever start fresh.
I mean it.
I was terrified, I am sure you are too. When I started the beginning of this journey I never knew what was going to happen. I only knew that I was ready to change.
I have always been terrible at committing to things. Not relationships, but goals. I couldn’t find my strength to go on. What could I do? I’m disabled. I have mental health issues. I’m overweight. I’m ugly. I’m… full of it. Yeah, I might have mental health issues, I might be disabled, I may be overweight… whether I’m ugly or not isn’t for me to decide.
Because I had shoved my strength so far down, I couldn’t seem to access it. Now as I have been digging around in there, I have found it. And let me tell you…
Yes, I am disabled. But I refuse to let that stop me.
Yes, I have mental health issues. But I control my life — not the chemicals lying to me.
Yes, I am overweight. But I am fully capable of exercising and eating better even on my low-income budget (and it’s pretty damn low.)
We bury our strength with lies and we have to ask ourselves, Is that really true?
Well, is it?
No, we answer honestly. No those lies are just lies. (example from: Loving What Is — by Byron Katie)
So, today we are all Wonder Woman (whether you’re a woman, a man, or none of the above.) Today you are Wonder Woman.
Today I am Wonder Woman.
Okay, let’s go over the good bits!
Eating & Exercise
Walked for a bit at the comic shop but mostly that’s all on exercise. As for food we went to Golden Corral and before you get in a tizzy about me eating at a buffet, I had a big ass Spinach salad and then I had some potatoes and a ton of chicken, and less than half a cup of ice cream. I know how to eat properly dammit, ha! I had half a glass of sierra mist, 2 coffees, my kiefer, lots of green tea, beef tacos with onions and avocado, and some tortilla chips.
My Pain Levels
I took some ibuprofen to deal with my pain yesterday and that helped for the majority of the day. Before bed I had some pain that left me with nausea but after stretching some I was okay.
Mental and Emotional Health
I had a great day yesterday! We had fun, and I watched TV a bit with my partner. Then I worked on a new video trailer for my YouTube Channel. It came out great you can click on the words underlined and go check it out!
Like I started this out saying, I am discovering my strength and that is opening an entire world up for me.
Reflection & Going Forward
We are most frightened of change than me are of reaping the benefits of it. If I move I will have to pack, I will have to do this or that, or whatever… There is so many excuses, right? We need to stop lying to ourselves.
I like to say, the worst that can happen is that you fail, who gives a damn? So, what people will make fun of you? Who gives a damn? They aren’t even trying. People who laugh at you for failing have never TRIED and NEVER WILL. Their opinion doesn’t matter, because they are just making fun of you because they are scared of doing it themselves.
Do yourself a favor today, sit down with your tea, coffee, water, whatever you’ve got and take out a notepad. Write down all of your goals and why you haven’t started working on them. Then write down WHY you want those goals. Then look at them every single day. Figure out what lies you’re using to keep yourself from moving forward and then change them.
Don’t let your fears and lies bury your strength.
“You Are A Bad Ass” by Jen Sincero
“Loving What Is…” by Byron Katie
Trust me you won’t hate yourself for it.
Last bit… Love yourself and dig out your strength… You are Wonder Woman.
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