Here I sit, an accomplished man. 30 days since I began this journey, I normally fail this sort of thing, but I didn’t because I did something different this time.
Before I answer why, let’s talk a bit about where I started.
Miserable and defeated. I was convinced that my disability had won and my life of doing all the thing I loved was over. I remember many of nights crying and telling my partner that I couldn’t take the pain anymore. I was tired of feeling useless.
I decided to take this journey and now it is far from over — I know this. I still have a will to live inside of me. I decided I would go about this with the right mindset. It started small before I decided to do this I was just finding my courage to start my YouTube Channel, and now that’s in full swing and I am making major leaps forward with it.
I changed my mind and started listening to advice for once. The smallest words, “Show up early.” and “Proof of listening to 20+ positive things a day”, and then it was the mind shift.
I am powerful. I am worth loving. I am worth my health. I deserve success. I deserve happiness.
Small shifts started at first, and to be honest even with all my gusto starting up the yoga was so hard. I wanted to quit. There was something inside me that refused. My strength was tired of hiding and ready to be a part of me again.
I have plenty of know-how when it comes to eating healthy and working out, that was all there and ready to go. It was my emotional and mental health that was messed up.
It feels like I changed overnight, it was so fast — this month went by SO fast.
I changed because I didn’t just decide to eat better, I didn’t just decide to work out, no, I decided this would be a whole change — not just a physical one, a mental one.
Making this small decision to work on my mental health along with everything else. Then I started reading some great books and watching Impact Theory with Tom Bilyeu and it’s absolutely amazing.
This has made huge differences to my mental state and I have just become a happier and more whole person. Yes I still deal with my mental health disorder but it doesn’t own me.
As for the big QUESTION, did yoga save my life?
In short, yes. The journey is far from over, but I have learned to eat better on a budget, I have gotten some yoga poses that I could never get when I first started and I feel so much better as a whole.
I have started learning to properly budget and save my money. I have balanced work, school, YouTube, blogging, writing, and social interactions in a healthy way.
I have invested in my life, in my success, and in my relationship. My partner and I have been making room to have a day together ALONE out and about at least once a month. Which is great because we have been so frustrated with not getting time together between all the schedules! Ha!
Yeah but that aside, my life is changed for the better, and starting Monday you can all continue to follow me on my next 30 day challenge for Personal Growth. This one will be about Organizing the things around me — nice living conditions improve emotional health and so my life needs to reflect that as well.
I will still be doing daily Yoga and I will be adding more cardio than just walking and light HIIT in, as I will be following the PRISE workout and diet regime as an actual experiment for my science class (still working toward that bachelor’s!).
So, mini synopsis of today:
Eating & Exercise
20 minutes of Yoga.
Half an avocado and a cup of green tea.
9oz of coffee with soy milk and 1tsp sugar (still trying to lower that.)
1 smoothie: Pasteurized eggs (liquid whites) 6 Tbsps, 2 oz of frozen mango and pineapple, 12 oz of soy milk, 1oz blueberries, 4oz of green tea — and 5 cubes of ice, a dash of cinnamon.
1 cup of greek yogurt and 1 banana.
Toast (2 slices) half an avocado with 1 tsp of honey mustard.
1 cup of white rice with 2oz of broccoli and onions and 8oz of lean pork.
1 cup of skim milk-low fat strawberry and vanilla ice cream.
A cup of green tea and a 32 oz bottle of water.
4oz of Mango Kefir. (for my acid reflux)
— — — — — — — — — — Sounds like a lot, but it’s still well within my cal intake, I am starting a food diary soon, so I will be keeping track of way more and keeping you guys involved and updated every step of the way.
Tomorrow I am going to format all of the posts together into one master post but it will be links and synopsis so if you want to share this journey with someone who was hard up like I was and needs work you can do so easily.
My Pain Levels
So, those of you who have been keeping up know that I have severe spinal issues: disc degenerative disorder, bone spurs, sciatica, mild scoliosis, and a bone growth that wraps around the artery on the back of my skull where it meets my spine.
My chronic pain stems from these disabilities, and yoga is one of the leading medically approved methods of rehabilitation.
I have seen people far worse off than I make it — and I am already feeling ten times better.
This has not been a miracle cure, I still do suffer from pain, stiffness, trouble walking, and several other issues (including massive migraines).
Today on this big ol’ occasion, I have to say I feel okay. My neck is hurting pretty badly, and I think I slept weird last night (not sure). Otherwise I am better though, for awhile before I started this the pain had become so bad all the time I could barely get out of bed, I couldn’t sleep unless I was sleeping sitting up in a chair because the pain was making me throw up.
Now, it’s so much different — I have slept in bed every night for quite some time, in fact, since the last time I blogged saying I slept on the armchair. It’s a huge difference.
My Mental and Emotional Health
This one is the big one, I thought this journey would be more about the yoga but it has been more about the mental health changes I have made and I am just so proud of myself.
Yes, I am proud of myself, and I am in no way ashamed to say so.
I still have a ton to work on but I have been doing a lot of shifts and I will continue to do so.
The biggest things have been who I associate with, the way I let myself think, and my priorities. Getting my goals together and just giving myself the permission for greatness have literally changed so much in my mind.
I have stopped letting these lies rule my life and begun to replace them with my new truths and if you can get to this point you will see it is a blessing and the one you have been waiting for.
Going Forward & Reflection
I cannot wait to see the man I know is under all of this fat, I am ready to let him take over. I am ready to not only be successful but look the part and feel the part while I am at it.
There is so much that has happened and still yet so much more to come. I will likely do a full 12 set series of these 30 days challenges, and when I get to the 1 year marker I will probably do a video (if I don’t do some in the meanwhile).
I know it’s hard to take people seriously with these things, so many people fall out and never finish, but I am just so happy for those of you who have been at my back and pushing me to keep going — your support means the world to me and my partner. Through the dark moments and the hustle to make it through, I thank you for being with me.
I can’t tell you enough how crazy this mindset change has been and the better person I have become because of it.
I have used to-do lists, schedules, my life planner (of which I have to finish making the video for), and my calendar. Soon I will have my personal planner that will be used daily, since the Life Planner is for me and my partner both and is more big picture.
I will be writing up a meal plan, and sharing that with everyone on here! As well there will be recipes and other things coming up that I can’t wait to share with y’all.
I promise to keep writing and if I just inspire one of you to do better and improve your life like I am doing with mine then I’ve accomplished what I set to do.
Until the next post!
“You Are A Bad Ass” by Jen Sincero
“Loving What Is…” by Byron Katie
Trust me you won’t hate yourself for it.
Last bit… Love yourself and dig out your strength… You are Wonder Woman.
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